Thoughts at Year End

Yet another year comes to an end & a fresh new one will begin. There are yearly rewind reels on Instagram, resolutions for the New Year, motivating quotes that “This will be MY year”….and what I am doing? I am introspecting – on the year gone by – about all my non-tangible achievements of the past year.

So what has been 2022 for me?

  • ü  An year of finally switching & starting a new job
  • ü  An year of moving back to my hometown Mumbai after 4.5 years & realizing how much I miss Pune & living independently
  • ü  An year of accepting that I have needed a therapist to help sort my issues
  • ü  An year of seeing many of my best friends get married & panic at my single status
  • ü  An year of reconnecting with some of my old friends & acquaintances
  • ü  An year of mentally cutting toxic people out of my life
  • ü  An year of spending wholesome time with loved ones & friends
  • ü  An year of dealing with heartbreaks, heartaches & closure
  • ü  An year of finally removing those rose-colored spectacles & be able to differentiate the genuine ones from fake
  • ü  An year of accepting that birthdays are overrated
  • ü  An year of making new friends yet struggling to form that one special bond
  • ü  An year of delving deep into the love of cooking & experimenting
  • ü An year of adding 5 writeups & 1 poem to the blog
  • ü  An year of finally taking that long overdue family trip & paying for it myself
  • ü  An year of finally shedding a few of those extra kilos
  • ü  An year of stress, confusions, chaos, fights, arguments, tensions & yet finding the strength somewhere to move on and live another day

What will 2023 have in store for me?

Any new career or personal prospects? Some calm in my mind & my life? A bit more maturity & a bit less overthinking & worrying? The strength to take a stand for myself & take charge of my life & future? Discover a way to finally live my life fully, stress-free, for myself, without attachments? Find a way to deal with people’s unwanted thoughts & opinion without hurting myself?

I hope I can tick off at least one or 2 of these things loitering in my wish list in 2023. Or if not, have some other non-tangible but priceless achievements that will finally help me be at peace with myself & my potential.

On that note, wishing everyone a Happy & Prosperous New Year 2022 full of growth, potential & good career/personal prospects! See you all next year!


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