Gratitude

A late post for my birthday

From the time I was a kid, right until a few years ago, I used to be really really excited for my birthday. The countdown would begin from a month ago. There would be planning, hoping for some surprises, cakes, celebration. I would be waiting to see who calls at midnight and if the ones I really love remember my birthday or no.

It all changed suddenly (thankfully) a few years ago, when birthday lost its meaning, its importance. It was just another day. That’s not to say that the concept of birthdays was not appealing. I really enjoy making them special – for others. But my own? I am not as much excited anymore.

Maturity? Growth? I hope so!

Have I really grown wiser? Calmer? More patient? I don’t know.

But have I learnt to cope with things better? Become stronger? I think so.

Because I have been blessed with a support system so rare, they don’t let me fall.

This birthday was special to me because it came riding on the back of one of my toughest phases. May not have been so critical for someone who has faced worse, but for me, yes it was nerve wrecking, devastating, stressing. But I survived & came ahead. Did it make me stronger? More capable of facing such situations in the future? I think so. Would I like to find out? No!

So it is a thank you – to the universe, to God, to my family & friends, my entire support system – for helping me survive yet another year around the sun. Maybe not as gracefully as I hoped, but I got up and continued to stand after I fell and that counts for something, does it not?

So cheers to yet another year of growth!

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  1. Priyanka1 June 2025 at 13:07

    Cheers to another year Amrapali ! Loved some of your blogposts. Keep exploring and writing ! ❤️

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